泣けました~ A Moment of Tears

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ドラゴンを育てるのは決して楽な仕事ではありません。自分のストレスや不満、不安、要求など全てを親にぶつけてきます。野球の直球みたいに飛んでくることもあれば、ボクシングのボディブローのように、じわじわとくることもあります。思春期の兆候か、1年くらい前から手強くなってきました。親としての技量を試される毎日、時には真正面から闘いに挑み、時には防波堤になったつもりでじっと荒波を受けるのですが、さすがに耐えきれず、精神的疲労から泣いてしまうこともあります(- -;)。でもこの日は違っていました。なんと出たのは嬉し涙だったのです!

よくあちこちのイベントで見かけるのが、海兵隊のブース。もちろんこれは兵士募集のための宣伝活動です。そこにはたいてい鉄棒が置いてあって、懸垂に挑戦するとちょっとしたご褒美がもらえることになっています。ある週末、サンフランシスコのドラゴン・ボート・フェスティバルに行った時、ケーシーが挑戦、5回やりました。ほんとは7回やったけど、うち2回は不合格(^_^;)。ドラゴンはその時は尻込み。無理もないか。人前だし、負け勝負には最初から挑まないタイプだし。

ところが、それから火がついたように家で練習し始めたのです。毎日暇さえあれば裏庭で練習して、自分が懸垂するのを見ててと言われたり、何回やったよと報告してくれたり。そして迎えた次の週末。恒例のサリナスでのエアショーに行ったら、ありましたありました、海兵隊のブース。緊張の面持ちのドラゴン。それでも私はやらないだろうと、最後までたかをくくっていました。でもそれは大きな見込み違い。

ドラゴン、両脇を抱えられて棒にしがみついたではありませんか! 「本当にやるの〜〜!?」慌ててカメラを取り出してシャッターを押していると、涙がどどっとあふれてきました。海兵隊のお兄ちゃんたちの大きな声援を浴びながら、歯を食いしばって、、、。な、、なんか感動しちゃって、、。カンフーで黒帯に昇格した時より嬉しかったかも~(涙o涙)〜。一緒に行ったU家の人たちに、しっかり目撃されてしまいましたよ(^_^;)。

結局6回やり遂げ、ご褒美にポスターを何枚ももらったドラゴン、私も大きなご褒美をもらった日でした。まだまだ嵐のような日々は続くんだろうけど、こういう日もあるもんね。赤ちゃんと大人の間を行きつ戻りつ、ちょっとずつ成長しているドラゴンを、親としてしっかり受け止めていかないといけないです。

ところでこの日、後になって、ドラゴンがきょとんとした顔で聞いてきました。「マミィ、どうして泣いたの?」だって。ひゃぁ~!親の心子知らずとはこのことか~(- -;)!!

A Moment of Tears

Raising dragon is no easy job. He never fails to take out all his stress, frustration, worry and desire on his parents. Sometimes it comes like a fastball in baseball. Other times it comes gradually like body blows in boxing. It may be a sign of adolescence, but since about a year ago, it has become especially difficult to deal with him. Everyday I feel that my parental capacity is being tested. Some days I challenge a straightforward battle with him. Other days I imagine myself transformed into a breakwater, quietly tolerating rough waves. However, every once in a while, things would come to a point where I give way to tears out of exhaustion(- -;). But that particular day, it was different. It was tears of joy that I let out!

One of the things we often see at festivals here and there is a Marine booth. It is of course one of their promotional activities for recruiting soldiers. Most of the time, the Marine booth has a pull-up bar and if you try pull-ups, you get some reward. On one weekend we went to a dragon boat festival in San Francisco. There, Casey tried and did five pull-ups. He actually did seven pull-ups but two were disqualified (^_^;). Dragon, on the other hand, hesitated. I wouldn't blame him considering he had to do it in public. He is also not the type of kid who would challenge a game if he knew he might loose.

After we came home, however, all of a sudden he vigorously started practicing pull-ups. Every minute he could find, he went to the backyard and practiced. He sometimes asked me to watch him do or other times he came to me to report the number of pull-ups he had done. Then came the following weekend. We found the Marine booth at the air show held annually in Salinas. Dragon looked a bit nervous. Still I didn't believe he would try until the last minute. I was completely wrong.

Holding up both arms, he emerged upward and grabbed the bar!! "Is he really going to do it???!!!" After a struggle to get the camera out of my purse, I started pressing the shutter. Then all of a sudden tears started flowing out of my eyes. Surrounded by young Marines giving him big, loud cheers, he was doing his best with his teeth clenched. I was so, so, so amazed..... I may have been impressed much more than the time he advanced to a black belt in his Kung Fu!! 〜(涙o涙)〜 Embarrassingly, the U family were with us and they saw everything ...(^_^;)

Dragon did six pull-ups and got several posters as a reward. I felt like I received a big reward, too. Although stormy days with him will continue for a while, a day like this also comes every once in a while. I guess I have to firmly accept dragon as he is as his parent. After all he is surely growing up a little by little, going back and forth between a baby and an adult.

Later that day, innocently he said, "Why were you crying, Mommy?" I almost fainted. This is exactly, "No child knows how dear he is to his parents (- -;) !!"
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by danceofdragon | 2010-10-15 10:34